Useless Rants

11/18/11

Dear you,

I miss you so fucking much. I still can’t get over it. I can’t get over that I’ll never have the chance to see or talk to you ever again. I miss our stupid conversations. I miss how you would tell me, “It’s okay.” and comfort me. I just miss…you. 

It makes me more sad to think if you still remember me. You probably don’t. I wish you lived closer, so I can see you. So I can know if you’re okay. 

I would give anything to talk to you one last time. Thank you, though. Honestly, thank you so fucking much. You’ll always have a place in my heart. I love you.

12/12/11

Some people are so fucking ignorant.

There are so many ways of self harm…

I would know… Sadly…

12/10/11

Everyone is so stupid!

Why does nobody see through my mask?

I need help…

IS it that hard for someone to ask, “Are you okay?”

At the park, I saw a little girl with her mother.

She was holding a twig and saying,

“I’m a real witch, Mommy!” 

I remember my ride on the subway a few months ago.

“Ollie! Hey Ollie!”

“You can’t call him Ollie! What if he doesn’t like it?”

“You can call me Ollie! Go ahead!”

“See? I told you he wouldn’t mind. :)”

Even though it’d be very awkward if I went to your sweet 16,

I’m very glad you invited me.

It means I’m close to you and you trust me. 

And that I’m your friend.

Atleast a little bit, anyway. 

Even though it’d be very awkward if I went to your sweet 16,

I’m very glad you invited me.

It means I’m close to you and you trust me. 

And that I’m your friend.

Atleast a little bit, anyway. 

11/29/11

You told me that you considered me not even close to sad.

That I was too happy.

It made me feel… good… even though it’s all fake.

11/26/11

I lied. I didn’t go because I didn’t want to.

Well, I really am sick but.

I do regret not going a bit but,

It’s alright. I chose not to go. 

11/25/11

Everyone is fake.

But I’m the most fake.